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April 8, 2018

John 21: I am Home


John 21

Series: John              Text: John 21             Title:  Jesus Appears

Goal:  That the hearers would stick close to each other


            Today we come to the end of our series with the final chapter in John.  You may have noticed that John the author does not mention himself by name in the story.  Likewise, John focuses not on himself but his mentor Peter in Chapter 21. 
            Flashback to Peter before the resurrection.  He bragged at the Last Supper ,All may fall away but I will never fall away.”  He was more than full of himself.  He set himself apart from the other disciples.  “These guys might turn their backs on you.  But I won’t.  Peter is casting aspersions on the 11 but saying he is better.  It’s as if he is saying, “Andrew is my brother so I know he’s not as brave.  James and John are mommas boys.  Thomas lacks conviction.  Simon the Zealot already left one cause.  Matthew might go back to his tax collecting.  The only guy who who is as solid as me is Judas.  There is something about him.”  Peter throws his friends under the cart.  imagine their consternation, shaking their heads saying “All will fall away.”
            Then that very night, Peter tries to stay true to his words.  He and another disciple approach the High Priest’s courtyard.  There is speculation as to who the other disciple was.  Some say Joseph of Arimethea or Nicodemus because they are on the Jewish council.  Someone else has said that joining Peter at the High Priest’s house is Judas.   He can get in because his betrayal made him known to this household.  But a more probable guess is that Peter is with John.  John likes to remain anonymous.  Also, early church fathers wrote that John was born a priest so his family was known by ciaphas the high priest.  Whoever the other disciple is, they are the only disciples who dare follow Jesus at this dangerous moment.  The other disciple who is nameless is known by the High Priest so he is allowed to enter.  Peter is not known, he must stay outside.  This is when he is approached by a servant girl who hears his Galilean accent and tattles.  She points at Peter and accuses, “He is with Jesus.”  Three times this happens.
            Peter was brave but he also was coward.  Just like us.  It must have been devastating.  Not just because he betrayed his Lord but also because he thought he was better than his friends.
            Jesus is killed and raised from the dead.  Later Jesus appears to Peter and the disciples.  JEsus says, “Peace be with you.”  Peter sees for himself that Jesus truly is Lord and Savior.  The world’s sins are forgiven.  Peace has been achieved between God and man.  Creation has been made right. 
            There is a difference between knowing that the world’s sins have been forgiven and feeling that your sins have been forgiven.  As a pastor, I experience this all the time.  People come to me and say, “I know I’m forgiven but..”  “It still hurts.”  “I still feel like I let God down.”  “The memory of my failure still haunts me.”  Peter knows that God is good.  That Jesus is all he said he is.  But he can’t get past what happened outside of the High priest’s gate.
            Later, Peter is with Thomas, Nathaniel, and two other disciples at night.  Peter wants to be alone.  He says, “I am going fishing.”  Not “Let’s go fishing” or “Who wants to go fishing?”  He says “I am going fishing.”  This is the first time in John’s Gospel that Peter says he wants to be by himself.  When Peter is called by Jesus to follow him, Peter is working with a group.  When Peter walks on water he has Jesus in front of him and the disciples behind him.  In the Garden, when he swung a sword to defend Jesus  the ten were by his side.  The only time in John’s Gospel that Peter is alone, away from the disciples, is when he gets separated from the group and he betrays Jesus. 
            How would you like your worst moment immortalized like that?  Imagine that a private embarrassment went public.  One commentator even suggested that Peter’s enemies might have made rooster calls as he walked by.  He blew it big time and everyone knew he blew it.
            So Peter wants to fish at night off on his own.  This might be the first step in isolating himself from the group.  One night turns into a series of lonely nights.  Then he feels himself becoming more distant from his friends.
            But the disciples do not allow him that first step.  They say “We will go with you.”  Those are good friends.  They could have been bitter towards him saying, “You said we were going to fall, but it was you.”  There is no hint of that.  They never make him feel guilty.  Instead they recognize that he shouldn’t be by himself.  In Genesis, God said, “It is not good for man to be alone.”  That doesn’t mean that we should never be out of the presence of others.  We all need to relax and recharge.  But it does mean that we are social creatures.  We must beware of behaviors in which we keep our friends at arms length.
            Jesus made the disciples a family so they could deal with crises like this.  He was the perfect dad who was always there for the household.  He knew that the days ahead would be rough and he prepared them.  He showed them how to love one another through sacrifice.  The disciples all made the big sacrifice, eventually dying for Jesus and the church.  But they also made the little sacrifices, like going out on the lake in the middle of the night because your friend is in pain.  Few of us will have to make the big sacrifice but the opportunities for the daily sacrifices are all around us.
            The disciples are like your friend who is concerned about your recent texts and says “I’m coming over with ice cream.”  They will drop everything because you part of the family of God.  Family is so important to God that he gives us more than one shot at it.  You have the family you are born into.  You have the family that you create.  And you have your brothers and sisters in Christ.  You maybe an orphan.  You may not have chosen the married life.  But everyone who is in Christ has this family, your church family.  We need to look out for one another, because life is tough. 
            So Peter’s friends tell him that they are coming, whether he likes it or not.  Was it a quiet night where no one said anything?  You know how you can help someone through a tough time just by being with them.  No words are spoken.  You are just together.  That is called the ministry of presence.  When you don’t know what to say, sometimes you don’t need to say anything.  Just be with them.  We don’t know what the tone was on that boat.  We do know that they collectively caught zero fish.  If Peter was on that boat by himself, he’d be thinking”I stink as a disciple and I stink at fishing.”  But his friends are with him.  He doesn’t stink at fishing, they stink at fishing together.  They fail together as a team.  That is Alive in Christ, win or lose, we are in this together.
            But of course, winning isn’t up to us.  Being successful as a church is not dependent on our skills, our ingenuity or our bravery.  It depends on Christ.  In the haze of the early morning, the fisherman hear “Guys, do you have any fish?”  They yell back in unison, “NO!”  The male voice said, “Cast the net on the right side of the boat.”  The disciples can not see the man’s face but the cast.  Maybe they are so tired and loopy that they will try anything.  But maybe they believe that the man on the shore can see something from his angle.  Fisherman often got help from people on shore who had a different vantage point.  Another reason to not fish alone.
            They cast the net on the other side and immediately they feel that it is heavy with fish.  They can’t haul it in.  They have to get closer to shore in order to get men in the water to help.  Another reason to not fish alone.  As they get closer, John has young eyes and says to Peter “It is the Lord.”  John doesn’t say it aloud to the group in general.  He says it specifically to Peter.  He knows that this is what Peter needs.  Peter needs JEsus. 
            Peter is fishing in his skivvies.  He is so excited to see Jesus but He doesn’t want to greet him in his underwear.  The Jews believed that greeting someone was a religious act.  You must wear an outer garment to perform a religious act.  He throws on his coat and jumps into the water.  He has to swim the length of a football field.  Peter reaches JEsus and they have breakfast.
            In this moment, Peter is alone with the Lord.  The fisherman are busy hauling in and counting the 153 fish.  It is an enormous catch.  Why does John give us a number?  Some try to make is a symbolic number but I think it was just such an exceptional catch that they recorded the number.  Fisherman love to measure their success.  So while the others are busy with the squirming sea creatures, Peter and Jesus sit together.
            What I love about this scene is that it is so normal.  Jesus started a fire.  There were fish cooking on it.  They were just two guys by the water enjoying each other’s company.  Peter has spent three years together, so they have had this type of time before, but the last 40 days have been nothing but drama and miracle.  It’s been an intense time.  Jesus focused on preparing the disciples.  Peter denied Jesus.  The cross.  The resurrection.  It has all been anything but normal.
            But Jesus works through miracle and he works through normal.  Peter sits there at the feet of his rabbi, wet.  The other disciples gradually come by and sit as well.  No one says anything because they are just so grateful to be with their teacher and Lord.  He hands out bread and the fish.  They have breakfast.
            You wonder if Peter is feeling guilty still about his denial.  The disciples have never reminded him of it.  But now with them here and Jesus, it had to weigh on him.  After they finished eating,  JEsus says to Peter Simon, son of John, do you love me more these?”  Simon, son of John do you love me more than these.”  Who or what are the these?  Some have said that JEsus was pointing to the 153 fish.  Do you love me more than your old life as a fisherman?  I don’t think Jesus was referring to the fish.  Peter proved he loved Jesus more than that when he left the fish, jumping off the boat into the water to see Jesus.  The other possibility is that JEsus was pointing to the other disciples.  Do you love me more than these disciples?  Now does that mean “Who do you love more your friends or me?”  That seems obvious.  Or does it mean, “Who loves me more you or the other disciples?”  You said “all will fall away except for you.”  You said you love me most.
            This seems harsh as if JEsus is putting Peter’s failure in his face.  I don’t think that is it.  Instead what JEsus is doing is is connecting Peter’s love for his savior to his friends, the church.  Jesus says “Feed my sheep.”   PEter do you love me?  Yes Lord you know I Love you.  Tend to my Sheep.  Simon son of John do you love me?  Peter was torn up inside because Jesus keeps asking the same question.  Lord you know everything; you know I love you.  Feed my sheep.
            Jesus is saying, “Peter, I know you love me.  The way you show you love me is to love your friends, the men and women of the church.  You are already forgiven.  I have given you my peace.  Now I need you to forgive yourself an move on.  Don’t wallow in your self pity.  Serve the people I have given you.  You are a pastor now.  You are a shepherd.  These people are counting on you.  They have forgiven you as well.  Put your grief into action.  Share your experience with the disciples.
            Peter now has a personal mission.  Jesus has turned his failure into an opportunity to encourage and feed others.  Whenever anyone in the new church messes up Peter can pull them aside and say, “Let me tell you about the time I denied Jesus.  If Jesus can bring me back from that, he can do the same for you.
            There must have been a lot of failure in the early church.  They failed together.  They learned from their failure, they forgave each other and God changed the world through it.
            When you fail, here is what you do.
1.      Do not isolate yourself
2.     Allow the church to minister to you.
3.     Overcome failure through serving God’s People.